When I grow up…
I’m pretty sure I’m suppose to be all grown up by now, but maybe I’m not. When you ask a child what they want to be when they grow up, most of them have an answer for you. I’ve never really been able to come up with an answer.
For most of my adult life I did what was expected of me and what I thought was necessary to help my children and husband be happy. I loved being a mom and I always tried to support my family as they went after their dreams. I didn’t want anyone to look back and wish they had tried this or that, especially when it came to their career choices. Supporting them wasn’t always easy. I had a husband who wanted to own a recording studio, a daughter who wanted to dance, a son who wanted to go into film. It has been a little scary at times for this mom who was raised by an accountant.
Now I find myself wondering what to do with my life. Part of me would like to continue to take a back seat to the rest of my family. I could easily be a hermit and keep myself busy with pottery and gardening. I am by nature a bit of a loner, which is why I probably love gardening. I started hagtips because of my love of gardening, construction and the need to have a project. It seemed to be more practical than building another house. My daughter has a very successful career as a blogger and if I was willing to follow her advice, in time I think I could even make some money with the blog.
When I started hagtips I was the most out of touch person when it came to social media that you could imagine and anyone who knows me will tell you that I am anything but tech savvy. I still don’t know half of what my family does when it comes to this stuff, but doing the blog has forced me to learn quite a bit. It has been good for me and I feel like my brain has grown a little over the past few months.
The problem is that I’m not sure that even if I was the most technically savvy person in the world, that being a blogger is right for me. Don’t get me wrong I love doing home improvement projects and gardening. I love writing, taking pictures and sharing what I know. I don’t like hanging out on the computer networking and doing the social media stuff which is required to make a blog succeed. I could go for days without checking Facebook and be perfectly happy.
So I’ve been re-thinking what makes me happy. I have a lot of experience in construction and gardening, but most of the things that I am most passionate about don’t really fit in a short blog format. After taking all that into consideration I’ve decided to try sharing what I know in some e-books. I’m not sure this newest idea is a perfect fit either, but I decided that I want to give it a try.
My husband and daughter have put a lot of work into helping me with hagtips so I would feel more than a little guilty if I totally let it die. I’ll continue to post now and then, but I will be spending far less time here and more time developing a more complete resource of the things I love best. I’ll definitely be backing away from the social media scene. I realize that by doing so my blog won’t be read by very many people, but that’s OK. It has been something to try while I’m trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
Wish me luck.